she's what I need

My heart's constricted by a vine of thorns
The more I fight it, the tighter it coils around my heart
Constricting, more & more, suffocating me
But when she gets closer, when I accept that she's means everything to me it releases the grip.
To be trapped by love in this way makes every effort to move on futile. At times it feels like I want to collapse & with every breath I try & take suffocates me more as if I'm trying to breath in a room filled with nothing but carbon. My heart in pain, racing, calling out to her, cause she's what I need. Every time I look into her eyes feels like I can stare in it for a life time & it just feels right. Never has one make me feel so jealous of everything. What I wouldn't give to be a permanent part of her, even if I could only know that I'm a memory she treasures at times when she reminisce about the past.