Cutting

My heart hurts, my mind races it's impossible to hide.
How can i stop the pain i feel inside? I can't stop crying,
I dont understand.

I feel like my world is breaking away, my heart shattering.
I'm so depressed that i lock myself away from the rest of the world.

I try to find a weapon of any kind, like a knife, straight razor, even sissors.
I reveal my skin on my thy and slowly drag the blade across it.
Against my flesh back and forth again and again untill blood seaps from each targeted place.

My skin rips as the dull cold still trails the same path once more.
My blood drips from my body to the floor, almost simultaneously pressure escapes my chest in relief.

It seems as though the more pain i cause on the outside my pain on the inside is eased.
 I lower the blade and just watch, as my blood runs down my leg a reaches my toes.

And though i'm feeling dizzy, my legs are burning, and i can hardly see my skin through the red that is my blood
...a twisted smile creeps into the corners of my mouth. As I start over.