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I'm Sorry
I'm standing in the background observing everything
Some people are laughing
Some people crying and clinging onto their tissues
Upfront is her casket, lights shining down like heaven shines between clouds
I walk upon her and see her face, I cannot believe its her
Her hair doesn't look right nor her face
As tears stream down my face, I try to grasp her hand
Their so cold and hard it scares me
I take a seat by myself and scan the crowd looking for her husband
He walks in the room and the crowd hushes dramatically
Looking weary and heartbroken he takes a seat in the middle of the room
A grown man crying can break anyone
All I wished for was for our mom to be there to comfort him like she always had
Hugs and kisses came from every direction and he just shook through the tears
Biting my lip I wanted to scream and destroy her killer
A wonderful mother and sister in law was taken from me and the world
Why was it her time? So young and beautiful I pray she is happy with Jesus
Rest in peace Lisa and tell my mother I said hi
Some people are laughing
Some people crying and clinging onto their tissues
Upfront is her casket, lights shining down like heaven shines between clouds
I walk upon her and see her face, I cannot believe its her
Her hair doesn't look right nor her face
As tears stream down my face, I try to grasp her hand
Their so cold and hard it scares me
I take a seat by myself and scan the crowd looking for her husband
He walks in the room and the crowd hushes dramatically
Looking weary and heartbroken he takes a seat in the middle of the room
A grown man crying can break anyone
All I wished for was for our mom to be there to comfort him like she always had
Hugs and kisses came from every direction and he just shook through the tears
Biting my lip I wanted to scream and destroy her killer
A wonderful mother and sister in law was taken from me and the world
Why was it her time? So young and beautiful I pray she is happy with Jesus
Rest in peace Lisa and tell my mother I said hi
Published 24th Mar 2013
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25th Mar 2013 4:08am
Nice poem. You demonstrate the "grieving" process well. Just a couple suggestions: 1. It's not possible to observe everything. Even a dog's hearing is better than mine. Please: careful of generalizations. 2. What stopped you from "killing the killer," even in some sumbolic manner? Would not that be a healthy place in the grieving process?
Welcome to DU. You have the makings of a good poet. Keep it up.
marcella1
Welcome to DU. You have the makings of a good poet. Keep it up.
marcella1
25th Mar 2013 12:26pm
I'm sorry for your loss. You'll never get over it but you will get through it.
27th Mar 2013 4:22am
This literally brought a tear to my eye. The emotion and imagery is so strong. I feel as though I was standing next to you in that very moment. You write such amazing work, thank you for sharing and I hope you are handling everything okay. Great write.
27th Mar 2013 4:44pm
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31st Mar 2013 10:12pm
A very intense, descriptive account. I guess the only thing I am missing is the connection this woman had to the people grieving. We read about being the mother and sister-in law but at least for me to get a full appreciation, it would be nice to know what made those connections, ie., those wonderful things she did. (Maybe the topic for another poem?)
1st Apr 2013 1:55am
Thank you. It was my sister in law who died and I was saying sorry to my brother
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5th May 2013 11:57pm
Aw... very touching, Amber. I want to comment on the genre, but it feels somehow innappropriate to talk about such things when emotions are involved, despite the fact that what I was going to say is along neutral lines.
2nd Oct 2013 1:39am
To all who have passed from this world to the next i pray for you in hebrew italian and german and i will translate and amber i am so sorry for your loss, i can relate but that will not bring back the ones you lost. I know how it feels to lose, to hurt, to want nothing but blood and death.
Ambra, hai sofferto molto dolore e molta sofferenza, la presente invio le mie preghiere e le speranze che se qualcosa accade nella vostra vita che siete venuti da me. Sono certificato in dicussions terapeutiche e ipnosi, non per guadagno personale, ma per aiutarti a far fronte.
אני מבטיח לך אמבר הזה, האובדן של יקיריך לא יהיה לחינם, אני מבטיח לך שהם נמצאים במקום טוב יותר עכשיו ויכולים לראות אותך מהממלכה הגדולה של אלוהים.
Es ist eine Sache, die Sie nicht über mich weißt. Ich kann mit den Toten und deine Mutter und Lisa kommunizieren beide neben mir saß, sagte sie, Ihnen zu sagen, dass sie dich lieben und nie die Hoffnung auf das Leben zu verlieren und wenn Sie auf Ihrem Weg zu sterben, dass es ok sein wird und Sie werden als drei vereint sein wird euer Vater
Ambra, hai sofferto molto dolore e molta sofferenza, la presente invio le mie preghiere e le speranze che se qualcosa accade nella vostra vita che siete venuti da me. Sono certificato in dicussions terapeutiche e ipnosi, non per guadagno personale, ma per aiutarti a far fronte.
אני מבטיח לך אמבר הזה, האובדן של יקיריך לא יהיה לחינם, אני מבטיח לך שהם נמצאים במקום טוב יותר עכשיו ויכולים לראות אותך מהממלכה הגדולה של אלוהים.
Es ist eine Sache, die Sie nicht über mich weißt. Ich kann mit den Toten und deine Mutter und Lisa kommunizieren beide neben mir saß, sagte sie, Ihnen zu sagen, dass sie dich lieben und nie die Hoffnung auf das Leben zu verlieren und wenn Sie auf Ihrem Weg zu sterben, dass es ok sein wird und Sie werden als drei vereint sein wird euer Vater
2nd Oct 2013 1:44am
it means (in order of italian hebrew and german)
Amber, you have suffered a lot of pain and a lot of suffering, this sending my prayers and hopes that if something happens in your life that you come to me. I am certified in dicussions and therapeutic hypnosis, not for personal gain, but to help you cope.
I assure you that Amber, the loss of your loved ones will not be for nothing, I assure you they are in a better place now and can see you from the great kingdom of God.
There is one thing that you do not know about me. I can communicate with the dead, and your mother and Lisa both sat next to me, they said to tell you that they love you and never lose hope of life and if you die on your way, it will be ok and you will be united as your with them and your father after his time comes as well
Amber, you have suffered a lot of pain and a lot of suffering, this sending my prayers and hopes that if something happens in your life that you come to me. I am certified in dicussions and therapeutic hypnosis, not for personal gain, but to help you cope.
I assure you that Amber, the loss of your loved ones will not be for nothing, I assure you they are in a better place now and can see you from the great kingdom of God.
There is one thing that you do not know about me. I can communicate with the dead, and your mother and Lisa both sat next to me, they said to tell you that they love you and never lose hope of life and if you die on your way, it will be ok and you will be united as your with them and your father after his time comes as well