...saVe Me...

And now I lay here still long after your sleeping. I take off my mask and listen to your breathing. I thought I knew you but I know looks can be deceiving. Now I search my head, always looking for a meaning.
   It's pouring crimson and regret. All down my chest. O geez what a mess.
   I've made....of everything.
    But with so much pain what did everyone expect. So much neglect.
   I'm trying to be who I think you want to see. Because just being me doesn't cut it anymore. Since my hearts tore, and everything's been stolen from me. My sanity, my whole philosophy.
   And where is my heart? Only a million miles away. I never should have handed it over, but with you I thought it stay. And it has, and it'll b until u forget about me. Why are u still forged in my brain. Torturing what remains.
  Of yesterday....so far away. Take me back to that day. I swear I wouldn't go and I wouldn't let u leave. It'd work out differently. We'd still b living happily.
    But that's turned into a dream. I can never reach. What I held in my hand, sifted through the cracks like sand. Now we're all damned and darkness has now claimed the land.
    The world doesn't spin right without u in my life. Everything stands still and only gets worse. My life's taking a break waiting for u. Waiting in itself to find the courage. To go back to what had broken this heart. Ur hand broke it but ur hand can only mend it.
    I'm slowly forgetting. Forcing myself to let it go. And as the darkness claims me. I whisper come and save me. Hoping u hear a million miles away. I need u now more than ever. Don't ignore that sickness in ur stomach. Find the road to tread. Ur way back to me. Let's b who we used to be.
   And I wake up to find him over me. Staring curiously. So I slip my mask back on. And let him claim me. When I wish so badly it was you. Come Save me.