When They Can Only See Steel

Envy me not,
for I am empty
I carry a burden  
one to heavy for most
 
so I laugh
big deal
so I live
whatever,
I feel hollow
 
you look to me and see happiness
I look to you and see a blind man,
you envy what you do not know
what can not feel
 
envy me not
for I am plagued
a war brews inside me
do you know which side I am on?,  
 
I am used to life's shit  
that's why I hold my head up high
don't think for a moment that I am arrogant
I do it to see over the miasma,
 
my dark eyes hide the blue
tears are boring,  
and screw up my make-up
only in the rain do they fall
 
if I get punched, I bruise
just like you
envy me not
for I am human too