My Smile

U see this smile the one I'm wearing.
It's fake.
It's fake like my love?
It's fake like my life?
Or is it fake in the sense I am not really smiling.  
This smile :) .
The one you see, it hides more then u know.
I smiled when Im wrong
When I'm sad
And even when I'm mad.
Because what left is there to do to hide these feelings.
I hide behind this smile that acts as my wall.
It keeps me safe and numb.
I don't like to feel.
Feelings seem to hate me.
All I feel is anger, loneliness and depression.
But do I show them.
NO!
Because they wouldn't understand.
I don't even understand.
All I know is I like this smile.
This smile you see :), it's the one I hide behind