Betrayal-feelings about an independent rapper who's head got big

Seems like showing support gets you nowhere, unless you're willing to share yourself with the roadies, the crew and THEN the rapper or rappers.

Although F.A.N.S show you a LOT of love, support, encouraging words, you seem to be engorged in your own self worth.

Pretty foul man. I extend  my hand out to you and you look at it disgustingly, as if I am a monstrosity. Metaphorically speaking..but the feeling is indeed 3D, no metaphor about it. I feel like shit when I see you shout out others after me, even during my dark and dreary times, all I needed was a sign that showed that you gave a damn...and got nothing.

Damn...

Welp guess what, once someone shuns me, that is it. You're on my shit list! Period! I'm trying not to get furious as I write this, but I believe it's bullshit. Ever since I put myself as LGBT, you ignore me. You must not know how many of us are F.A.N.S...but yet you give us the backhand.

I wonder...should I take  you off my radar?? Hmm..maybe I should, just so maybe, just maybe you could see that the fan in me is in need of your positivity.

But you're in the limelight now...so fuck us now huh...welp...then

F**K YOU!