na meeting (excuses)

i sat down with a bottle of mad dog and a blunt last night
some beanie siegel and chinese democracy
love is, as is
but everything beautiful in you
is only recognized through my expensive speakers
grocery stores and elevators
what a podium for the white guy dancing
i'm glad the peas cost less than constantly dealing
with you being an emotional sell out
trading in the needle for a false sense of hope
caffeine induced patronizing
did'nt serve you  well
times have not been kind
my aching head
you might not live here but you still visit
halfway home is'nt there yet
and is not a comfortable recliner
in front of the fireplace
i'm not like you
i will die true
i have'nt taken a solid shit since high school
the liar,the thief, the power junkie.
i am me........
I in dilated eye
watching a law and order marathon does'nt give you a legal degree
you are not street unless you sleep on it
"it's not your fault"
is never true
i will butterfly effect my way all the way through
a moral inventory
somebody
everybody
only speaks of 1 or many bodies
explaining how the world is such a shitfuck place of turmoil
may give you a sense of commroddary but
does not justify being a holier than asshole
maybe i miss you
it's all love baby
i might only mean the love and baby part
the all is just part of a catch phrase
i guess i miss you
not really you but who.......... i once was...