Just another Shadow...

The roar of the crowd washes over me...
Their voices washing over me...
Pounding my ears...
Reminding me how alone I really am...
i stand here...
And watch...
Waiting...
Hoping that someone,anyone would reach out to me..
I fade into the background...
I hear what they say...
The looks they give...
Heck even some pick on me as if it weren't enough to humiliate me further...
They don't even know me!....
Yet they cast me out...
As if i were diseased...
Only because i am different...
I do not follow...
I'm not like them...

They make me feel worthless..
Am i worth anything?...
Does anyone care?...
It doesn't  seem like it...
If i cut and bleed would that make it hurt less?...
At least i'd feel a different kind of pain...
Do i even matter?...

Does anyone see me as valuable?...
No one understands...
They don't know me....
I need someone to TRY...
I feel so alone...
So numb...
So empty...
Who will try to save me?..
If they stand by a watch the loneliness eat me alive...
What does saving me even matter?....
One less worthless life.......