You wasn't to blame

My addiction has been raw
it got me to the core
beat myself up again
because of all them men

i take all the abuse
reaction to my past
the pain and the guilt
will leave me at last

sleeping with you sleeping with him
degrading myself so my thughts wont come in
but here inside is the little girl within
shes trying to get out to let me know
shes worth so much more she wants me to grow
she loves me so much she adores me you see
shes the beautiful girl that lives within me

ive ignored and rejected her
pushed her away
never listened
to what she wanted to say
i just got her through the day

it wasnt her fault
she kept quite for years
abandoned and fought
back her fears and her tears

i want to tell her im sorry
i didnt mean to reject her
i meant to protect her
but i didnt know how
please fogive me now

i love  you so much and accept you as you
your part of me that i couldnt see through
all my time now will be devoted to you
your beautiful and innocent it just wasnt you

You wasnt to blame