Was It Worth It?

So tell me, was it all worth it?
When you decided to take a shot to the head
What were you thinking, are you glad that you’re dead?
What is it that you see behind closed eyes?
I hope that you can see me and the ones you left behind
This gruesome scene of torn flesh and blood puddled on the carpet
Left with a crumpled note that only answers some things
I stand over your body absorbing this whole picture in
But I can barely make anything out with these blurred eyes
Wondering what I could have said or done I guess it’s too late
A soul that was in his prime, gone many years to early
The first responders pulling me away from your remains
As I fight to hold on and hope you breathe again
This is just a dream I tell myself, wake up Mike! WAKE UP!
But when your parents come to me and hold me I know
I hope you found your salvation because all I found was hell
A stone tablet won’t let me express what I’ve lost
I’d give anything just to see you again at any cost
If I could ask anything I would ask why you left me and
Was it really all worth it?