The darkness inside

Day after day, it just never seems to end
I wake up and and wonder what the new day will bring
will I find happiness, joy or perhaps even love
or will this emptiness continue to win

Will this loneliness I feel ever stop
or is this my fate from here on in
Not sure I am strong enough to take that first step
So I wallow in these feelings of sorrow and regret

I stare out the window and watch others scurry about
holding hands and smiling, sharing quiet thoughts
there was once a time when I too shared such moments
But now I sit in silence as dark thoughts float about

There is no one else that I can blame
I know that it is up to me to make the change
but I'm uncertain where to turn to or where to go
so this emptiness oddly enough becomes a friend