Internet Love Jones

   Internet Love Jones



Hi, my name is Dimitrea I’m 40 + year old woman who has been divorced and single for 3yrs and counting. 13yrs ago I meet and married the man of my dreams, my soul mate, my lifelong partner, my happily ever after Reggie or so I thought. What happened? I caught him cheating! This is my story…



Reggie and I both work a lot of long hours but we always made time for each other sometimes it was a “quicky” during lunch other times a weekend get away.  But, after 10yrs things changed we no longer met for lunch and the weekends he always had something to do. I noticed that he had changed (I know, in life we are always changing but damn!). If he wasn’t at work he was on the internet “work related” he said and I got no love!

One day while “working” online he got a phone call and said he had to take it in another room (straaaaange) he got up and went to the kitchen leaving his laptop opened. Curiosity got the better of me so, while he was in the kitchen on his cell phone I took a peak just to see what he was “working” on.

He closed out of whatever he was working on so I decided to check his emails. In his email were advertisements, letters from work, friends and family. One particular email was listed frequently it was from “Singleblackschat.com” I clicked on the email it read “aman4u you have a chat request from kissmesoftly2”. Before I could get into the site I heard Reggie finishing up his phone conversation agreeing to meet the person on the other end the next day for lunch. I quickly closed out the email and clicked on the original page he left it on. He turned off his computer packed it up and said he had to go to the office kissed me, said “I love you” I in turned said “I love you too” and he left. All day I thought about that email, I wondered why was he on a black singles site, what’s with him having a user name “aman4u” (howda hell you gonna be the man for someone when you gotta a wife?!) and more importantly, who is the Ms. Kiss-me-softly-2 bitch and what do she want to chat about!?

A few days had gone by and I couldn’t stop thinking about that site soooooooooo, I went on the site and created my on profile using the name “youllnevakno1”. Shortly after logging on I began getting chat requests from men such as “mr1durful, 1loverboi, blkrideher, and others, I was like “really?” but nothing from “aman4u”. a few days had gone by without a chat request from my husband so I decided that I would close out my profile this was useless. I turned on my laptop and heard the “you got mail” indicator to my amazement I got a chat request from “aman4u”! I was strangely excited and hurt at the same time (you feel me?). T dialog went as followed:



Aman4u: hello ms youllnevakno1” and welcome to the chat room”.

Youllnevakno1: hello Mr. aman4, thank you!



We chatted off and on like that for a few weeks then one day the conversation shifted:



Aman4u: so when are we going to meet? I am dying to see you face to face!

Youllnevakno1: oh, so you wanna take this from the “virtual world” to the “real world” huh?

Aman4u: YES!

Youllnevakno1: why? I thought this site was only for chatting not meeting.

Aman4u: well, it’s for single blacks for a reason

Youllnevakno1: yeah, I know but for some reason I assumed you were married or had a girlfriend, am I wrong?

Aman4u: I wouldn’t be on here if you were right… lol!

Youllnevakno1: I c

Aman4u: sooooooooo, whats up?

Youllnevakno1: I guess we can meet, when/where?

Aman4u: how about tomorrow night around 8 o’clock we meet for burgers at 5 guys on rock rd?

Youllnevakno1: what if I don’t like beef?

Aman4u: you’ll like my beef ;)



That last response prompted my gag reflect followed by rolling of the eyes that resembled a seizure!



Youllnevakno1: in that case I’ll see you then!

Aman4u: looking forward to it!

Sign off



For the rest of the day I cried mourning the loss of my “happily ever after”! I did nothing but sleep and cry for an entire day! Reggie came home and noticed that I was in bed with red puffy eyes, he asked, baby what’s wrong? I told him I have a massive headache and just wanted to lie down. He said “ok” and offer to lay with me but quickly changed his mind when his cell phone chimed. He kissed me on the forehead, told me he’ll be down stairs if I needed him.

My thoughts “OF COURSE I NEED YOU! I NEED YOU TO BE THE MAN I FEEL IN LOVE WITH! I NEED YOU TO BE A GOOD AND FAITHFUL HUSBAND! I I I I I need you to un-break my heart! I berried my face in my pillow and cried softly all night.

The next morning he had already left for work I got up took a look at myself in the mirror I told me get it together; today’s the day. I went to work on Zombie mode but I looked good though! (a Diva may be dying on the inside but she keeps it looking good on the outside!)

Reggie called me around 6 o’clock to tell me that he will be working late and not wait up, he’ll grab something to eat at the cafeteria. I was so glad he couldn’t see me because too through! Too through:  the next level after heart break and before crime of passion.



BY 8:15 that evening with ereader in hand I walked “Divafied” into 5 guys heading toward line “order line” I spotted Reggie who eyes popped out like an Acme cartoon character about the same time he spotted! I pretended to be surprised! I said “hey Boo, whatchu doing here? You said you were working late and that you would grab something in the cafeteria.” Reggie said “yeah, well I finished early and agreed to meet one of my boy’s here for a quick bite. What are you doing here?” I said “since you wouldn’t be home for dinner I decided to come here for some Cajun fries and do some reading.” I then held up my ereader to back up my story.

After a few awkward moments I said “well I’m going to go on and order my fries.” He said “ok, I’ll wait for Ty to get here before I order.” I smiled (forming my lips into a smile felt like using my face to lift a ten pound brick) said “ok” then got in line to order. After my order was called I took my fries and sat at a table on the other side of the restaurant then began to eating fries and reading; rather the act of reading cause I couldn’t really concentrate. By 8:45 I pretended to be full I walked over to the table where Reggie was patiently waiting for his guess to arrive. “Hey Boo, I done reading for now, I guess I’ll head home and get ready for bed.” He kissed me and said “ok honey I’ll be home shortly.” We kissed goodbye and I left. When I got home I turned on my laptop and heard “you got mail” indicator. Of course I knew what the email would say but I opened it anyway. “Youllnevakno1 you have a chat request from aman4u.” I closed it without responding and resigned from the site.



Do you want to know how I told Reggie that I was Ms. Youllnevekno1? I sent him the email!



To be continued