strange little lies

we’re not as broken as we think we are
but when the lights go out, I’m still a bitch
a pretty little cock tease
a lonely little attention whore

I sleep to dream of you
I wake and search for your face
that will never lie beside mine
because attachment is a dirty word

we’re a friendship born of darkness
and a long list of medical words
that box us in and stamp us insane

I miss you, my non-lover
and the guilt vibrates my bones
with things I don’t understand

I fuck and leave
never letting the sunlight hit my face
one night is all I need to know
everything I need to know about a man

I’m a liar and whore and an unbearable tease
but I’d still curl up next to you
just to have your arms around me
and know for a moment that someone cared

because we’re more than the things we let define us
and I’m sorry for my silly little betrayals
when all I really needed was a friend

-Eve-