I need to be alone..

I sit alone in my room
and cry over it all
it all comes at once
my breath is hard to draw

the initials on my arm
the problems at home
all my fucked up thoughts
that wait until I'm alone

they fall all at once
bringing me to the ground
my sight becomes blurry
and I cant' hear a sound

I can only hope
that no one can see
I must hide my pain
it is only for me

I do this to myself
It is of no fault but my own
I need someone ere with me
but I need to be alone

my anger brings hate
my hate brings fear
my tears bring the truth
and reveal all my fears

I tried to hide
but it never ends
when I think its almost over
a new cycle begins

It's her
it's them
it's him
it's me
it's this
it's that
she's his

I'm alone
I lie
I can't do this
but I try

I ask to be alone
but you dragged it on
I didn't want this
my words fell like stones

why do I say this
why can't I stop
I need to close my mouth
but my bottom jaw drops

I talk
I lie
I cry
I stop
I try
You start
I'm now dead inside