If there was a category for painful feelings...

I will go back to school.
Sit through my classes
and you will watch me
drift away
Vicky,
I will never be a great basketball player
because
I will never play with all my heart
again.
Erika,
I will never blame you for the pain I felt
because
pain is better than nothing.
Kirsten,
I will never write
because
I will never be real again.
And when I'm eighteen
and I dropout
I will take my car and run
You and me will have one last drink
a toast to my soul.
We will cry all the tears that need to be shed, for our past, our love, our life.
You will shed your tears for me.
Because I won't make it home.
Kyla,
you have been a savior to me
I'm sorry I can't help you
I just need so much.
Carolyn,
I'm sorry I could never follow the rules
I'm sorry I'm breaking your only rule
but life is more than I can bear.
Sean,
I forgive you
and I've almost forgotten your face
so hard to let go
so easy to hang on.
I know it's hypocritical
I've forgotten you but not your actions
not your knife in my heart.
But it's ok.
It's all over now.
I leave my words to the people who care.
My assassination notice.
"greetings everyone, I,Tess, have chosen to assassinate myself"


Right now turn on "Leave Out All The Rest" by linkin park.
See how many chills you get.