You were so clever

You were so clever,
you diged into my world
like ants looking for shelter,
I was empty like a tunnel,

you were mean like a snake,
not while you needed
my lips to quench your fire,
I became vain in my desires,
when you weren't  killing me ,

you were charming,
and when you were charming,
you were still a lair,

I never really knew you,
you were like silence with
many secrets hidden,
and I was not with you,

I clinch to sadness
and sadness so
tenderly hold me back,
I can smell the gardenia of
your emptiness and it
grabs my soul,
so sweet, yet so dead,

with tears of pouring thin rain,
they touched my bones and hurt me,
beating my hopes, my words are more
yours than mine, they climb up my
body like flames waiting for your return,

you are the blame for
this cruel tone in my voice,
before you there was nothing
but me, now you left a hole in me,
you hear me?