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Darkness On A Weary Soul
I never meant to be so bad,
I dont know why I feel so fucking mad.
Since I recall I've been this way,
I tried so hard to not just go astray.
But everything I tried to do
Just built it up, inside my hunger grew.
And Innocence fell through my hands,
I have become something, just not a Man.
A monster with such lying eyes,
Those who have trusted now in graves they lie.
I didnt mean to bring such Pain,
Couldnt control the thing that I became.
It lived in my veins, lived in my Heart,
And with such passion tore them all apart.
But that is Me, it's who I am,
By my own self am I to be condemned.
I know exactly what I do,
I know in Time this Life will take me, too.
It is a sickness I cant cure,
An ailment in this life I cant endure.
I wish I could have just been Good,
Became a Man I knew and understood.
But Darkness on a weary soul,
Creates something that has no self-control.
My Innocence was drowned by Hate,
I would now sell my soul to change my fate.
I saw the things that I would do,
And knew I wasnt like the rest of you.
I didnt play the way you did,
I was an awkward little twisted shit.
I liked to hurt things I would catch,
I'd watch them die then throw them in the trash.
Sometimes I'd save some of their heads,
And hang their skulls across my room on thread.
As I grew older I moved on,
I went from cats and dogs to something strong.
An animal is easy prey,
But hunting Men is such a harder game.
Once I began I was a fiend,
I had to kill to find a moments peace.
It's like a junkie in my mind,
Begging and begging not to be confined.
It always wants to just get high,
And watch the life drain from somebody's eyes.
These days I try to keep it down,
But, Oh, those fucking urges come around.
I drop my walls and lose control,
And kill, like I have never killed before.
Each time more blood and much more pain,
It seems in vain I have this Hate contained.
So here I write my last request,
That I may finaly be granted rest.
I ask only that I be burned,
And to the Earth my ashes be returned.
For now the beast in me is still,
So there's just one last victim left to kill.
I just want you to know I tried,
But couldnt change what I became inside.
So now I say to you, at last,
I'm tired...and The Sleep is coming fast.
Pretty soon my veins will be drained,
And this Pain will fade to memories stained.
Tell nobody what I have done,
And dont ever speak my name.
Let me fade away No one,
And let not their Pain become my fame.
I dont know why I feel so fucking mad.
Since I recall I've been this way,
I tried so hard to not just go astray.
But everything I tried to do
Just built it up, inside my hunger grew.
And Innocence fell through my hands,
I have become something, just not a Man.
A monster with such lying eyes,
Those who have trusted now in graves they lie.
I didnt mean to bring such Pain,
Couldnt control the thing that I became.
It lived in my veins, lived in my Heart,
And with such passion tore them all apart.
But that is Me, it's who I am,
By my own self am I to be condemned.
I know exactly what I do,
I know in Time this Life will take me, too.
It is a sickness I cant cure,
An ailment in this life I cant endure.
I wish I could have just been Good,
Became a Man I knew and understood.
But Darkness on a weary soul,
Creates something that has no self-control.
My Innocence was drowned by Hate,
I would now sell my soul to change my fate.
I saw the things that I would do,
And knew I wasnt like the rest of you.
I didnt play the way you did,
I was an awkward little twisted shit.
I liked to hurt things I would catch,
I'd watch them die then throw them in the trash.
Sometimes I'd save some of their heads,
And hang their skulls across my room on thread.
As I grew older I moved on,
I went from cats and dogs to something strong.
An animal is easy prey,
But hunting Men is such a harder game.
Once I began I was a fiend,
I had to kill to find a moments peace.
It's like a junkie in my mind,
Begging and begging not to be confined.
It always wants to just get high,
And watch the life drain from somebody's eyes.
These days I try to keep it down,
But, Oh, those fucking urges come around.
I drop my walls and lose control,
And kill, like I have never killed before.
Each time more blood and much more pain,
It seems in vain I have this Hate contained.
So here I write my last request,
That I may finaly be granted rest.
I ask only that I be burned,
And to the Earth my ashes be returned.
For now the beast in me is still,
So there's just one last victim left to kill.
I just want you to know I tried,
But couldnt change what I became inside.
So now I say to you, at last,
I'm tired...and The Sleep is coming fast.
Pretty soon my veins will be drained,
And this Pain will fade to memories stained.
Tell nobody what I have done,
And dont ever speak my name.
Let me fade away No one,
And let not their Pain become my fame.
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