You and Him

The two of you are so much alike
The two of you are so very different

I wonder if I am trying to replace you
I wonder if you can ever be replaced

He wants something that’s casual
You wanted to build something special

I am one of several for him
I was the only one for you

He brings fire to my flesh
You brought freedom to my soul

I like playing with him
I liked belonging to you

He mistreats and abuses me
You nurtured and reassured me

I crave the feel his whips on my back
I craved the feel your arms around me

He humiliates and hurts me
You made me feel valuable and worthy

I hunger to be his filthy whore
I hungered to be your little one

He looks at me with lust in his eyes
You looked at me with respect in yours

I use his pain to forget you
I used you to forget my pain

He says my job is to please him
You said your job was to protect me

I desire for him to desire me
I desired for you to feel for me

He sometimes makes me feel worthless
You always made me feel worthwhile

I see short term fun with him
I saw long term meaning with you

He wants mostly my sex
You wanted mostly my mind

I give him my body
I gave you my soul

He brings out my animal self
You brought out my intellectual self

I trust him with the physical
I trusted you with the emotional

He forces me to my knees
You forced me to face myself

I don’t know how I would’ve managed without him
I don’t know how I’m going to manage without you

He sees me in all my dark places
You challenged me to climb out of them

I want him
I needed you