the truth

Yes I’m really going to tell you the truth
I’ll put my lies to the side
So you can judge and criticize
My wrongs from my rights
Until you realize
I no longer have anything to hide
No more shame
Too much pride
So cocky
It’s hard to cry
And when the tears start to rise
I over analyze
Almost everything in my life
Off and on different abusive situations
That’s lead to a life of constant questions
Second guessing without hesitation
My walls will never completely come down
I always resort to the sound
Of everything I'm around
When it gets to be
A little too much
I head homebound
My past
Is very abstract
It’s never easy to look back
At whatever’s been done
And try to explain it to someone
Yes I’ve been forgiven
For all my bad decisions
My family’s been supportive
Since the beginning
Wasn’t raised from the wise
But learned to survive
In between the black and the white
I’ve opened up my mind
Completely changed my perspectives in life
Took one hit and accepted it in my life
Yes I know I’m fucking crazy
More of a bitch than a lady
So go ahead and keep talking shit about me
When I’m in the wrong I’ll stand up and say I’m sorry
Until then
Speak up and listen