Ruin Me

We've been standing in the dark for so long
It's gonna break my heart to turn the light on.
If I can't be the one you want, then
It would hurt me less for you to
Tell me the truth, that
You don't really feel the way
That I do..
I should leave, I know,
But I can't let go.
I thought I was over this,
But I cant forget.
Loving you is my regret.
All the things I've done to
Make my heart worse,
It completes my curse.
I should just forget,
But I still remember..
I forgive you, and it'll haunt me,
So what else can I do, to ruin me?