No More

you were my first
Surely I learned my lesson
and you will be my last
surely you could never
want me back

who could I ever love?
only you could fill that gap
the one that I never knew
was even empty
you are one in a few
and now I can't bring myself
to love anymore

I can't look into another man's eyes
and not be reminded of you
I surely hell can't tenderly hold her
and to her face just outright lie

I don't want to break her heart
I don't want him to tear me apart
I don't wish for a life of suffering
so in the darkness I will stay
I will be one with the world of night
because of the blinding cruelty
of the light

love and it's beauty
always seems to be the first
to be destroyed
it's a neverending curse
and the staggering loss of happiness
is what hurts the most

so if another asks me why
after I refuse their love
I will not lie
I will say I'm done
because I don't
want to go through this hurt
anymore