Lose

I lost someone today, I should
Be happy right?
Its what I aimed for, so why
Arent I saying hooray?

Because this person was my
World, so it felt like. I fucked
Up by holding his heart for a
While then throwing it back at
Him shattered.
Saying "sike!"

Now look at me, picking up pieces
Of my memories of us and trying
To put them back together.
Crying at night and sending desperate
Messages during the day. You don't
love me anymore...everyday is
Bad weather.

We will never be the same repeats
In my head. No more love, need,
Or caring, just casual hellos and
Updates. Ill try to be better for
Myself now, I am beautiful and
Strong.

I am my future, im not going to
End it or mess that up, but with all
Of this I want your love drowning
Me in a safe gold cup. I dont want
Nightmares of my hurting you
Anymore. I want us as tight as
We were before...