Doubts & Fears

Is God real?
Is God merciful?
If he is, then why am I this way?
Why do I wake up every morning wishing I hadn't?
All I ever feel is pain
All I ever want is death;
To sleep soundly, to never ever wake again

Is goodness real, or just another lie?
Is it something my mother told me just to keep me alive?
I long for answers
I long for truth
Still, knowing what I know, I'm certain I'll never get answers
I'm certain I'll never hear truth
People are too fearful;
Way too afraid of their own fucking shadows to speak their minds