Lost

I find myself living everyday in the past
In the future
Not finding an ounce of peace causing torture
When I lie down and reflect
I fall in to a deep dark river
Forever flowing one without control
I try and posses
But I have to let go
I'm stuck in a vortex
I surrender my soul
I have come to a moment
That's on a record that won't stop
Forever repeating the same actions
From bottom to top
I try and adventure keeping my back up
Staying positive
Holding that smile
Searching for awareness in my cognitive
But I think iv lost the true meaning of life
What is it?
Enjoying every moment
Feeling free to run with the wind
Spinning around with the rain drops
Let's go back to childhood
That is when I mastered the elements
But ever since then iv been lost
Hid under the pain 
Do I want to live in my mind
I'm confused mixed messages
Should I lie down and let go
Or get up and walk the path of my world
One that's alive 
And won't grow old
I'm still young and free
My attitude is getting old before its time
Finding that balance inside
I'm letting go
From now on 
I don't care where my body takes me
To the mountain
To the river
To the road
I have to understand that there's no code
No answer
Just live and love 
And don't even look above 
There's no hope just time 
And life 
so live while your still in your prime
Who needs regret 
Who wants to forget
The life you've tried to master
When your older you'll have time to reflect
Keep moving to the beat 
Shake ya feet
And let go
Flow to the music
It will show you how to be