worked over

Makeing the choice to throw in the towel
I give and you take you see i howl
All the sweet talk you could keep
Tomorrow i must pack so for tonight isleep
Im damaged in my head thought process stunted
You dont have a care where you goin you grunted
I dont know but your little escapade is stuck in my throat
I gag upon the bile of my mistakes love only pain promotes
You just abandon me like i was a stowaway
Something you didnt mean to bring
How is it that when we lie alone you tell me your dreams
At that time i guess they still included me
Your life is your own to do with as you wish
But you served me up a fine dish
Theres so much to be said for fresh fish
I supose you move on and up or down you lost my kove when from me you stole you sold me out gave me up an offering it seemsyh
You massacred my hopes and dreams shattered peices of hopes regret
It takes the death of hope to let us go you wont even give me a reason
You arent even the man i believed you to be your arts are fine tuned you decieved me you alone made me sickened with regrets
But you searched for a reason to stop loving me
In your head it was just too good maybe you thougjt you didnt deserve
all the love in me maybe you were right you never had to even provide for us
You never did anything but tare me down  like a dead weight
An anvil around my neck to be broken by something that aparently im new and a fuckin fool i lived with you lay next to you each night you were but playing me like your favorite song repeatedly and blindly i allowed you to so you did nuthing i didnt give permission for i accepted you for all you are
And from that sweet revery im pulled now my furys cooled and i set out to pretend we never were and in my mind  again youll never be so goodnight
Tonight i sit and brew over all th idiot ive been made out to be
So kiss me baby smile for me and tell me youll wait for me
And wait an wait cause im done being put down done being your fool
I wouldve reasembled this ugly world for us to have sanctuary
But im looking to better things im done being ordinary im gonna be al you couldve loved and then well see whos a mark a simp and pawn
I dont like whats been done to me but this is my dose of redemption
What a massive pill to swallow i wil be donr so have no pity to wallow
In im not regreting im just forgeting you ever exsisted
Wiping you out of my memories taking the pictures of us
cause your own words there never was an us were just friends
Well with friends like you who needs enemies right well as I
retire to clean the philthy off me you may as well have
lodged an attack on cartel for the fury of forgiveness finds you
I release what was never mine a love unrequited
A soul hopelessly lost bare and flat devoid of hope
Away  just fly far and away this is the last day strength i require
And a love for hire im not too unintelligent to see whats been done to me
You are everybodies hero except mine you should have been mine instead you are a zero void of feeling void of humanity less than anything ive come up
Against you are vile skin suit waring toad go frollic with your own you are unwelcome here this heart is no longer your home
So go back to where you slitheredfrom you are nuthing  me
My heart cold and black ever more no other shal enter there