UNBREAKABLE

I heard the news today,
a part of me felt like crying,
and a part of me felt like lashing out.
If we never speak again,
then I suppose it was for the best.
I am not gonna lie,
so much of me wants to hate you,
and so much of me could give a fuck less.
So why is it that the pain still persists?
Why, in the pit of my soul,
for you I feel remorse?
When all you have done,
is tear me down and rip me apart.
I have tried so many times to make things right,
and now your time has come, but you are out of sight.
These walls are hardened,
this heart is blackened,
this mind is concentrated,
so why is it these eyes begin to shed tears?
I thought I was unbreakable,
but this shit is killing me.
Sometimes it feels like this was a mistake,
a mistake that I was ever born,
I guess this is the way it should be.
You may pass away,
but the scars you have caused will forever remain.
I am so sorry that I could never be the apple of your eye.
I am sorry,
but I wont be there to watch you die.
You were never there to calm me,
never the hero to destroy the enemy.
All I can remember is the anger,
your disgust for me.
Thought I was unbreakable,
you are my most hated nemesis.
I hope that those that you have fooled will be there,
I hope that someone for your sake will hold your hand,
when that final breath comes.
For my presence, nor my touch,
you will never feel ever more.
Let these be my final words,
lend me thine ear for one precious minute.
Thought I was unbreakable,
but this shit is killing me,
please heal me,
make me feel unbreakable,
now you set me free......