why me god

Why me God? Why is my life so filled with tears?
Does he have to hit? what has he to gain?
as he rips my clothes-Do you feel my pain?

Why me God? why can't my mother hear my cries?
When I scream her name-does she have a choice?
When I cry in the night-in a small child's voice.

Why me God?  Why is it I have to carry this load?
Did I do something wrong? Is is something I've said?
Am I just a mistake? AM i BETTER OFF DEAD?

AND WHY O GOD-  couldn't I have a normal life?
Did you give ME eyes- to watch OTHER kids play?
To see the joy on THEIR faces- day after day?

And why O God- couldn't you give me understanding?
Is there a lesson to learn? Or is it too much to ask?
Will I smile someday? Will it be my Last?

BECAUSE GOD...IF YOU'LL JUST TELL ME WHY!
IF YOU'LL JUST SHOW ME THE WAY..

Then maybe I can feel worthy-  in some small way..