Off my mind

You have been gone for years
Even now I still cry tears
Pretending that things with us were picture perfect
That every tear is worth it
But deep in thought shows the truth
Silly things from our youth
We had a fight
I hated you that night
I didn't think what word could do
Tell I lost you
Three days later I remember well
the day my heart fell
I found out your died
I thought i was the reason why
I had never felt such pain
I also felt ashamed
Wrote a poem before and it was published
about you I didn't rush this
I was proud untell I found out
the night we fault and I called you names
You laid down with another
she is now your child's mother
My heart broke yet again because I wouldn't let you in
I never gave myself away at the time thought it was a sin
Times have changed I'm different now
one I cant figure out how?
Is to see you one more time
and get you off my mind