My Last Thoughts

Running water, door banging and loud screaming
 
Now drowned echoes slowly fading  
 
Is this the sound of death or am I  dreaming
 
Brightly fogged sight behind teary eyes
 
Why am I crying when I wanted to die?
 
Am I selfish, should I have choosen to stay alive?
 
No sense in wondering if it was right or wrong
 
I've bled too much, all feeling in my arms have gone
 
A barely whispered goodbye as I began to shut my eyes
 
Tears splashing off my face, my head now held high
 
In her arms I could see her scream and cry
 
Wishing she didn't have to watch me die
 
Without a word or even hearing why
 
Wondering should I have left a note
 
Texted I was out of town or locked the back door
 
Laughing a bit inside at my stupid life
 
Even at the end I failed to do anything right
 
Wish I ...
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