A Monster?

I'm falling apart
I can't focus
My mind is slipping
Through the dark never-ending abyss
I can't see
My mind can't register this
Why is this happening?
Am I meant to be this monster?
Am I meant to live forever off of the lives of others?
No?
Well then tell me what I'm supposed to be.
Tell me because i would like to know.
Apparently you know everything I'm supposed to be.
You know my whole life story right?
So tell me.
Go ahead.
I thought so.
You don't know for sure.
You never will.
If I tell you what I think, you will push my thoughts aside and never return to them.
I believe this is what I am supposed to be.
So walk away if you can't accept that.
Leave me.