Heartburn (lost)

Get out of my head
I miss you so bad
this can't be good for me
too much of what I've had

I know I love you
i wish otherwise
Over time, it grew
and you know time flies

But you never notice me
besides for studio and stage
What's this to be?
Life's such a rage

you make me out of place
like this is a big race
I'm scared I'm way too late
but maybe it's just fate

I wanna know how you feel
If I'm lucky, this is real
But of course, Luck hates me
So maybe I should leave you be?

I can say this ain't the first
but I'm just sure that it's the worst
Why it started, I don't know
You got me pacing to and fro

But then again the chance ran off
and now these thoughts come oh-so-oft
There's so much i want to say
I wish I'd said it yesterday

Did I ever exist to you?
Hopefully, a 'yes' is true
You are way too far away
You have made me run astray

forgive me for all the moments
I messed up in rehearsals, or lost a beat
A door closes with each that opens
I chose the wrong one, I'm in defeat

Every time you flash in my mind
A heartburn is what I will find
I still remember how you shined
Until you left me far behind