Darkest Night - Poem/Rap Verse

In the darkest night I cry heavy looking at the silhouette
No one understands Just how wet my pillow gets
I don't smile I just stay upset
living my life full of regrets
so many problems I haven't figured out how to handle yet
so many bombs disembowel this vet/
It hurts all my friends are now a threat
and to top it all off my daughter isn't by my side
It's not really my fault I tried
until the point I was standing over a bridge wanting to fly
So alone so calm standing still as cars drove by
That day there was beauty in the sky
For I realized even though I wouldn't still be by her side I had a duty to stay alive
When everyday is a struggle to just stay alive
I'm forcing my problems to lay to the side
And people claim they can relate
that I can be great but those conniving snakes I realize to be fake
How much more can I take before I snap and break
leaving this world behind to swim in that fiery lake
I break with every step I take
even when I'm asleep I'm awake scared of the fact my nightmares may equate
to a broken state of mine
I'm lost behind enemy lines confined in the limits of my own mind