mental physical emotional poison

You've held me in captivity
For what seems like an eternity

Cause so much catastrophe
within me
My body falls, collapses
effortlessly

This internal pain
depresses me, so sick of
this anxiety

I need the fight
in me to break free
My eyes watery from
the overflowing tears caused by
my paralyzing fears

terrifying how these fears
sear and singe my skin
burning me from the outside in
like I'm damned to hell for my sins

why is this disease in me
stuck inside  me, it's fuckin with me!

Suckin my spirit dry as I slowly die inside

This mental and physical instability is corrupting me
interrupting my positivity and quality of life

I want a serrated knife to cut out this strife from my soul
I need to feel whole
Physically, mentally emotionally

Please God help me be ME

Again...