The Mother Of My Sisters Killer

sitting by a murderess's mother
is like sitting by the very source of evil
if she had not raised that creature who in a way had a hand in my sisters early death
the anger is me literally causes my whole body to shake
my sight is even effected by the rage
what sickens me the most is that I share my very name with this woman
I beg God to help me to forgive that women and her daughter for what they had done to me and mine
but today has only shown that I still need more time
it's like a wound has been reopened
the lost of Faith renewed in my aching heart
I try to forgive this women for what her daughter has done
but how can I when she has caused so much pain to everyone?
I know I am to forgive her for what she and her daughter has done to me
but I'm struggling with this anger that rages and burns in me
the shaking is going away now
but how am I to forgive her when the loss of my Baby Sister is still fresh in my mind
blood flows from a bite in my lip trying to keep my angry words in
not forgiving her I believe is a sin
her daughter helped in the events leading to my sisters death
she hit my birth mom with a car
she was pregnant, but the baby survived for little longer
but my step dad and his girlfriend and her mother
wouldn't leave my birth mom alone
the stress took it's toll on her body and mind
the placenta broke and no body could do a thing
my baby sister drowned in her very mothers blood
5 minutes the doctor told us 5 minutes and Faith was dead
how I still wish to have that women head
my step dad and his girlfriend spread ugly dark lies about the death
said that my birth mom had killed the baby intentionally
how can one break one's own placenta?
when the doctor said only stress and physical injury could have caused what happened to happen
the women hit her with a car
she called her nearly everyday to torment and get her angry
her mother soon did the same
and then this women the mother of my sister's murderer dares tell me that I am a liar
how I wish I had slapped her in the face
I was there when the doctor explained what happened.
I was there when she came home from the hospital after she'd been hit with that woman's daughter's car
I was there, I heard the calls
I was there I saw and heard it all
do not call me a liar when you know nothing at all
the anger I had at the beginning of my rant is now gone
my anger won't bring Faith back to us
won't change the past at all
now all I feel is the familiar sorrow and pain
oh Faith my only comfort is that your with God above
and that he's showing you his purest sweet love
that women got away with killing my baby sister Faith
but she won't be killing the joy that happens to be in me