Anniversaries 1 Year here and 6 months nowhere

I noticed that tomorrow will be my 1st anniversay here on DUP and I have to say it has been a lot of fun and also a challenge at times. I almost didn't make it a few times, partly because I got fed up with the rediculousness of arguing with people in the forums, but also because life has been a challenge for the past 6 months. Yesterday was the 6 month aniversary of my stoke. That was not a good thing, as I still have the effects of that to deal with on top of the financial problems that come along with not being able to work and fighting with disability to get benefits to survive on. All that piled on top of having to live with my mother, OH MY GOD, has been exhausting. I slept through most of today just because sleep is hard to find and if I get the chance to get some in the middle of the day, then that's when I will take it. Now I am awake in the middle of the night and who knows if I will be able to fall asleep before the sun comes up, but so what, it's not like I have anywhere to go or any money to go wherever I might wish I could go. That's pretty much how every day is for me, unless i have a doctors appointment or two, in which case it gets very stressful because I can't drive now and the buses don't run on easy to catch schedules or run by where I have to go at the right times.

So this is the in between day of two anniversaries that made me stop to think about life and what it's worth. There are always days when I think it isn't worth the experience, but once in a while something good happens and I am glad for it. My mortality is more prominent now after having a life changing event like a stroke. I know I won't be around forever and just being here now is a stroke in itself, of luck... The one I had could have been much worse and left me completely blind and paralized. I've only written a few poems this year but I think they are pretty good, so I hope I am here for at least another year to see if I can get a few more out before I die, or the world comes to an end. Looks like we only have 4 more months to find out. I hear there is a meteor shower ober the next few nights, wish I could see it. I have a few wishes I'd like to make...

jj