A bit of heartbreak?

Hey...i'm sorry like really I am.. your amazing and perfect for me. I love, trust, believe  you with everything I've got and worth..

But I'm ruining you, hurting you. I'm trying to get you as much as I can. but your busy... or in secret you really don't want to be with me that much I don't know. I hope 1 not 2...

I've made you cry, on the way back to the beach. you lost all trust and belief in me... and still don't trust or believe me..

or am I wrong? somewhere.. Maggie I feel terrible cause of what I've done. and everything I do... you don't like

my jokes/humor when I try helping you. me being me...
its like you don't like it or wish it would change

your embarrassed of me. in and out of public ...

What i'm trying to say is..do you love me? I love you... even when I do these things you don't like..

I miss you...

I want to know... do you still want me? love me? need me?

or are you happier without me.. without having to care about me or be annoyed or bothered by me...

tell me now later ..never Its up to you..

I'm sorry... this isn't goodbye is it?