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Secrets (Read By Indie)
when I was eight
daddy came to my room
he said, “it’s our secret”
[that] was the last time I cried
it’s been five years
every night’s the same
these days I’m just numb
begging to feel something
[anything] to know I exist
I took the blade from my razor today
I’ve been sitting here, holding it, staring
wondering why I have this temptation
like I have no choice
I push the edge against my skin
and pull it toward me
the pain from our first “secret”
fills the cut, and pools
into tears of blood
I do it again
this time the pain is from a promise
to not tell anyone
or he’d keep “secrets” with my sister too
a cut deeper than the last
for when mommy caught daddy
shut the door, and walked away
she fixed my favorite breakfast the next morning
years of hurt and tears not cried
flow freely down my arm
garnet rivers that remind me
I can feel
I am still human
I am
alive.
entered into a competition
daddy came to my room
he said, “it’s our secret”
[that] was the last time I cried
it’s been five years
every night’s the same
these days I’m just numb
begging to feel something
[anything] to know I exist
I took the blade from my razor today
I’ve been sitting here, holding it, staring
wondering why I have this temptation
like I have no choice
I push the edge against my skin
and pull it toward me
the pain from our first “secret”
fills the cut, and pools
into tears of blood
I do it again
this time the pain is from a promise
to not tell anyone
or he’d keep “secrets” with my sister too
a cut deeper than the last
for when mommy caught daddy
shut the door, and walked away
she fixed my favorite breakfast the next morning
years of hurt and tears not cried
flow freely down my arm
garnet rivers that remind me
I can feel
I am still human
I am
alive.
entered into a competition
Written by
raorrick
(Rachel O.)
Published 31st Jul 2012
| Edited 26th Aug 2012
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31st Jul 2012 5:19am
It`s incredible how you render beauty from pain.
If there can be an "icing on the cake" here,
it`s that you are helping people who
"just dont get" this behaviour understand.
Thank you R/O......
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Re: Secrets (Read By Indie)
26th Aug 2012 3:26pm
Wow racheal this is deep. It's really sad and touching. I felt for the little girl then woman In this story. That makes this a great write. Much love sis
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Thank you Gigi! I am glad I was able to have the feelings of this piece come across the way they were intended. :)
Thank you for stopping by. <3
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Thank you for stopping by. <3
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26th Aug 2012 10:28pm
You make a fair point.
Not only that, but people tend to judge others for the way they cope, with out trying to understand why they choose that method.
I hope to at least shine some understanding to why someone might become a cutter.
Thank you for your kind words on this piece.
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Not only that, but people tend to judge others for the way they cope, with out trying to understand why they choose that method.
I hope to at least shine some understanding to why someone might become a cutter.
Thank you for your kind words on this piece.
~X~
Re: Secrets (Read By Indie)
26th Aug 2012 9:25pm
Rachel O how I am startin to like your stuff the more I see..thanks for that lovely piece.. and I thank Miss Indie for her delicate reading of your piece as well..
Philip
Philip
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26th Aug 2012 10:30pm
Hey Philip,
Thank you so much for your lovely comment. Yes, Indie really does a great job at portraying the emotion in this poem.
So glad you stopped by.
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Thank you so much for your lovely comment. Yes, Indie really does a great job at portraying the emotion in this poem.
So glad you stopped by.
~x~
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30th Aug 2012 5:37am
Any time I see that you have commented on one of my poems, I get very excited. I love your enthusiasm.
What a great compliment. Thank you Betty.
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What a great compliment. Thank you Betty.
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