I'm sorry but I still love you

don't call me tough, don't call me strong
because your all wrong
if I were the things you say
why am I still this way?
hurting like I am
wishing I could just see his face again
is he missing me?
is he happy?
does he even think of me at all?
how did I let this fall?
all these question turn and burn in my aching mind
I wish he'd give me just a wee bit of time
to convince him of the truth of what really went on with that girl and me
to show him I never meant to betray him if I did in anyway
what did she tell him anyway?
he's so close and yet so far
I could walk to him, I don't even need a car
if I cut would he then be able to see
how much he means to me?
I never wanted to cause him pain
I never wanted to drag him into this rain
I miss him more with every breath I take
I wish he would give me a chance for goodness sake!
why didn't he trust me?
what did I do to make him go? I'm so confused see?
I want him here in my arms, I want to show him what he means to me
I'd cut out my heart if he asked me too
I'd do it just to show him that I still love him and I really do not want this to be through
this, this wasn't meant to end like this!
without you I'm a living dead girl
without you I can't breath
but you dont care because your not here you fucking there
I should be angry I should be furious
but boy I haven't slept in so long I'm probably delirious
not that you would even care
because your still not here your still there
would you change your mind if I told you how I feel?
or would you call me a liar and claim my feelings aren't even real?
I'm sorry I never got to tell you I loved you
I'm sorry you saId good bye and I'm sorry I'm such a coward and not strong enough to go to you
I'm sorry I'm such a fool
I'm sorry but I still love you