Why is it me

I feel as if Ill crack
Crumble under the pressure
Im confused on what to do
To just go with it or to
just leave it alone
Should I play along or quit this game
I wonder do I have the guts to tell
her off
I dont know what to do
Whether to be afraid or just
sit there as it happens
I dont know what to do
Will I get hit for the words Ive
said to her
Will I be punished for the things
that Ive did to her
When will she stop living in her dreams
Living in her own little fantasy
Im beggining to lose my mind
The insanity is beggining to sink in
Im trying to hold on to reality
Will I lose this fight
Will I lose to her
Will I ever overcome her influence
Why does she push me
Pushe me so much it hurts
Im beggining to fall,fall into this
darkness I have created
Falling into this prison
Held back by the chains
Not knowing if Ill ever come back
Why is it me
Why is it always me