you wasn't meant for me

when I  first saw you that day
the place of books about wonder and unexpected things
my first impression of you seemed so kind from afar
but when I approached you were mean as can be
I was fooled by your sweet smile
and kind words like “i can take away your pain”
your beautiful words where what drew you to me to you
and your personality was just like a spider getting captured into its own web
I wanted to believe you were different then from my old special someone
I was so naive to believe you was the one for me but
you seemed so sure that you could erase this
painful scar printed over my heart
by someone else
I used to cry a sleep every night because I wanted to be loved
I thought that person would be you
someone who I forever loved
now and forever was our words to each other
you told me it's okay to be myself with you
be 100% me and I did try
but something told me to still keep my distance from you
but I didn't listen to my little voice in my head
saying “just be by yourself, the right guy will come to you”
I didn't want to wait so we went go together
down our rocky road called relationship you said I changed
that I wasn't the same person you fell in love with
my respond to that is that I'm the same person you loved
it's just that I am telling how I feeling and what  I was thinking
all the time and don't like to feel like I'm so sort of science experiment
for you to play with, sometimes I just want to stand in the rain
to hide my tears without complaining  maybe that will wash my pain away
but f you want to know what goes trough my head so badly
listen closely to the songs I play deep in my heart
because the lyrics speak the words I failed to say to you
as I see your name on my screen I put my finger over my mouse
so gently that you don't even hear the sound it makes while you type
I press block because I knew we would never be nothing more then too
lost strangers because of the assuming and lying that had been going on
I knew it all had to sadly end we both were unhappy so I did what was best for us both nevertheless
in rage you posted untrue  and hurtful things on  the most populated social sites
such as Facebook and Youtube when I did see it broken my heart to see such
a sight tears ran down my face that day I couldn't deal with the hurtful words “i hate cowards like you” and so on but that pain hasn't subside just yet but it will when the right one that is meant for just me finds me