Wasted heaven

I live my life so seriously
I want my family to have good thoughts of me
living on the edge is fun , I know
but I have my dignity and i won't let it go

I don't want to face this world alone
and if I have to , i'll give up all the free time i own
because no one will save me when i'm in the deep
if i'm dissowned , no one will stand by my grave and wheep

it's cool to live on the edge, and watch as i'm given away with wasteful sins
you don't think about death
so in the end who wins?

if my friends are all i have to turn to
they won't offer me a hand ,and pull me through
they'll just watch as my life slowly spirals down
and they'll forget me as in sin i'll drown

and when it'd time to wave the white flag
you'll realise there's nothing to hold you back
no one will have sympathy as you're put to the ground
no one will wheep or care enough to make another sound