These voices

2 voices in my mind
one says live
one says DIE!
one side screams
Tonight Tonight!
Grabe the knife!!
END YOUR LIFE!!
Stop the lies!
Stop the horror!
Stop the pain!
stop it
STOP IT!
I dont move
I sit and think
Should I do it, Should I wait?
WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!
What to do, what to do?
I know I dont have the guts to
I keep saying that I will
But it take will to will the heart
to accept death
to allow it.

The other interferes and screams
maybe theirs hope!
MAYBE THEIRS NOT!!!
you must keep believeing
BELIEVING IN WHAT!?
...I dont know
I DONT KNOW!!?
Shut up shut up shut up!!
Im sick of this shit!
Im so lost
what do I do I refuse to listen
But cant help to hear
All these voices
Screaming in my ear
I cant believe im thinking this way
But I cant help all the words that I want to say
gets caught in my throat
and bashes my brain
as if to say
HOLD YOUR FUCKING TONGUE!
I cant talk to anyone else
The fear is too great
The voices fade
And im left alone
Until they come to my aid