new regret

time
space
distance
fading reality
slowly
i've forgotten much
when i get a little taste it moves me wildly
i've forgotten the taste of lust
being wanted
it makes me so hot
but after so cold when i realize what i've done
i forget what it was like and i lost it
i did exactly what she asked
now i regret
my dick it brings me nothing good
nothing i want
now i remember
i made a mistake
i didn't know
what i was doing
i hurt myself i sold my dignity and got nothing
now i remember why i hide so much
i stay away
people only want me as a friend close to help but never more
or they want me nude they want my dick and i mean only as much as my words that arouse them
it hurts to know this
i get sad
i wanna be worth more
now i wish i could take it back
reminds me of alexa