Who am I?

*Inspired by the Eminem song, sorry if it is similar in any way, not meant to steal.  Regardless of your opinions on him, that is not the point.*

Who am I?
I do what they say
I be who they want
I act how they act
I am who they are

I lost sight of who I am
I tried to take it back
But it is so hard
My family doesn't understand
Or do they?

Would they still accept me?
They did with my sister.
I can't with my carreer
I would lose what I have worked for

Is it still what I want
I know what I would like
Should I just do it?
Or hold back and help others?

What gives my life meaning?
Is it what I do?
Who I help?
Where I go?

I wish there was a manual.
Some say the Bible and trust in a Cosmic Jewish Zombie** will help.
Who can prove what is right?
Science, law and logic puts burden of proof on the proover.

I don't know what to think, or what to do.
I will just hold on to the roller coaster bars and see where it goes...

**Can't claim ownership of that statement**