loveless 2 years

i forget its really been so long
august 18th
its coming soon
tears come every night
its been so long
so cold
so dark
i can smile on occasion
but its a weight on me

how does this all happen so quickly
she just up and left
never said why
only later

every night i cry
for her
i used to cut
i used to be so wrong
now i try to be right

but i miss her so much
my lil alexy
she promised forever she promised kids

she broke all of that
but i still love her

two years later
she still means so much

soon after its my bday
i already used the wish on someone else
it came true
they're happy

i'm not getting anything
nothing i want

not a friend not a lover
not a reason to live

so i'll blow out the candle without a wish
and think about alexa
and cry myself to sleep