Who Am I?

I'm trapped with the everlasting question of who I am?  
It's been burned in my mind, branded there for all time  
They call me beautiful, tell me I'm pretty  
Say sweet things  
But to me all those words don't mean a thing  
They don't know me  
The monster I am inside  
They only see the girl I try so hard to hide  
If they could see the violence, have a peak into my mind  
They'd all run, they'd all hide  
I've been looking for love, but I'm not willing to settle  
They say they love me  
They don't know who I happen to be  
How could they when I don't know who I am  
Have a look  
At my facebook  
The network says their my friends  
If they are, then where are they when my world falls apart  
My families all I have, through thick and thin  
Their there for me no matter what trouble I've gotten myself in  
Girls, they talk about me behind my back  
Guys, their always on the attack  
People come, people go  
They break my heart  
Ripe my world apart  
So make fun of me, go ahead  
I don't care my hearts won't be dead  
I used to be able to fly  
But they tore me from the sky  
They broke my wings and I still don't know why  
I suck at being 16 and I suck at math  
Walking through the forest I don't follow the given path  
The only one I can depend on  
Is my God and my God alone  
No I won't give up  
I have to many people to annoy  
And to many to enjoy  
So do your worst  
Cuz baby I'm in this world, but I'm not of this world