The hardships of me.

Life as we see it, is not at it's best.
The wheels turning in my head.

Thinking of all the ways things can go wrong.
Not stopping to think about how i've been so strong.

Never to enjoy life with out it stepping in the way.
Painful to say but never a lie.

I am my wall of destruction.
I am the one standing in the my path.

But i'm to scared to push past the hurt.
I don't want to be seen with out my walls.

Everything i love seems to be going slowly.
How can i come out of this a winner.

When i'm the only thing standing in my way.
The tears i shed at night, are my weakness.

Never to tell any how this effects me.
No one to see who i am and who i want to be.

This is me, but then it's not.
How can i get past this cowering block hold i have on myself.

To afraid of getting hurt.
So i lock it up inside.

I want to be free and show who i am.
But alas, my mind is to weak to stand one more blow.