Let me be free

I hate being here
Especially when I have to see her fucking face every day!
I tell myself to get over it, that I am acting immature.
But what you are doing to me is killing me!
She took you away from me! And I am supposed to look happy about it? You told me that you loved her today,
And, I’m seriously praying to God that isn’t true.

I never thought those words would have hurt so much.
But, they felt like razors sliding in and out my ear drums!
If I could go back to the day we first spoke,
I would just walk away right then and there!.

Maybe that way you wouldn’t be such a big fucking part of me.
Maybe you would not have my heart in your hands.
Only for you to squeeze it every time It begins to beat for you.
So, this anger will not subside.

I mean, how can it when your love life is splashed up in my face every day? Wherever you go, She goes.
Do you not see the look on my face when you  hold her?
Do you not feel it too?

You kissed her in front of me the other night.
Never have I ever felt so sick!
You looked straight at me.
What was that all about?

Are you doing this to me on purpose?
What have I ever done to you to deserve this?
I fucking hate her with every part of me!
And If I could kill myself halfway,I hope the part of me that dies is the love I have for you.

You make me ache! Even if you’re not around.
You’re a liar that is what you are.
You call me beautiful and then treat me like I’m invisible.
So… now that she’s here I do not matter to you anymore?

And yes, maybe I’m bitter
No fuck that, I’m just mad
You try to tell me how a guy is supposed to treat me.
When this is how I was treated by my own best friend!!!!!!!!

I hate looking at you
Matter of fact I think that it’s me I hate the most.
For falling in love with you.
i hope  you feel it and see it in my eyes.
I hear your name. I think of her. I hear her name, I think of you and her.

You were texting me the other night. Almost 11.00 pm.
with her laying right beside you. Yet, you still have the nerve to think of me.
Your ruining me!?

The moment I thought we would never have a chance together, you tell me you’re not sure anymore.
But I hear nothing. Nothing but the girl in me that wishes she had the courage to shout out to you.
I can make you happy! I can be the girl you’ve been looking for! Just give me a chance! if not, let me be free from you.

It’s going to take God and a million prayers to heal this pain you have caused me.