I Implore

That's it.
I give up.
I'm throwing in the proverbial towel.
I am out of ideas,
solutions
and I don't have the energy to push this love plow.

I'm sorry my love if this seems harsh.
But this is too painful for my already bruised heart.
I've written and begged
pleaded 'til I may go out of my head.
I can't take the rejection
upon fierce introspection.
I loved and love you it's true.
But I will never get the same back from you.
I foolishly thought I meant something to you.
The reason I did
were your recent poems.
But now I really don't feel
that either of us
knows which way this wind
is blowing.
Maybe your pride was hurt?
That's why the recent soon ending flirts?
I fell hook line and sinker
but I have to bow out
and learn that  I do have self worth.
I can't always be a fall back on girl.
My mind is in a perpetual whirl.
If I am simply too intense or passionate
then I guess my love... it is time for us to be rational.
We can move on
and maybe find others to appreciate
what makes us each special and real.
You know that authenticity towards you was all that I felt
and always will.
But at some point I have to draw a line in this sand.
This is my attempt at that
at taking a strong stand.
If you love me
I have to know
or simply walk away
and then make me understand.
The ups and downs have never
been a part of this plan.
It hurts too bad my sweet
and it brings me to my knees.
I am running out of pleas.